Somebody else.

You want to know what songs are really important/relate to my life right now, and why they relate to my life?
Yeah you do.

Forgiven - Skillet.
"Forgive me I'm ashamed, I've loved another."
Unless you really don't know me, you'll be able to figure out that one. A hint is that I have a best friend whom I adore. Another is that I've met a whole bunch of new people this year. 1+1=2.

It's Your Life - Francesca Battistelli
"It's your life, whatcha gonna do? The world is watching you."
That's how I feel about my life. I feel that, if I make one little mistake, my world is going to come crashing down. I feel like everything I do is judged, and I have to remember that it really isn't.

5 Years Time - Noah and The Whale
"5 years time, we might not speak."
This song has two meanings. One, it's just one of those generally happy songs, introduced to me by Jodie Gordon on the way to ringette. Therefore, this song makes me think of ringette. And happiness.
Two, I still haven't completely gotten over something that Molli said, "I was ready for this to last for a while.." pertaining to our fight. That kills me. And it shows me how easily they were ready to not really be friends with me anymore. I'm scared of that. I guess it's stuck with me, making me feel quite uneasy about our friendship.

By Your Side - Tenth Avenue North.
Sometimes, they forget how much I love them.
And the others just don't know how much I love them.

The Fight - The Rocket Summer
"This is how you made me, to fight the fight and keep on fighting."
This song talks about being abandoned. And truthfully, that's how I felt for a while. I felt as if certain friends of mine figured I was fine because of the change in my life, and the new people that I met. And I wasn't. But because of it, I just tried harder to be accepted. And I was.

Somebody Else - Hawk Nelson
"I used to be somebody else."
I've always loved this song. Listening to it makes me realize I've changed. But most of it is for the better. I think I've become a much smarter person, as well as someone who doesn't shit a brick at the thought of an oral assignment. Sometimes, it hurts, because people have expected me to become someone, and therefore have started thinking me to be that person. But I'm not.

Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
"And I don't want the world to see me, 'cause I don't think that they'd understand."
No one really understands me. I don't even understand me. And that's frustrating. Extremely.
"I just don't want to miss you tonight."
I'm tired of wishing I was somewhere else, and it being all I can think about. I don't want to be this dependant on something I know I am going to loose soon.