Live like you were dying.

I am about to blow let out a lot of steam.
First, can we talk about how sad it is that I actually had to change that because of the bad thoughts that came into my head?
I am so ashamed.

WARNING: I know I talk about ringette a lot. But a lot of the time, that is all I have to talk about, sooo.. Beware. Ringette talk coming up.

First game without you. And I miss you terribly.
I almost find comfort in knowing that I am not the only one though.
"I feel like one day I am just going to walk in and they are all going to be there."
"I know hey? I feel like this is just temporary and I'm gonna be back with STEE soon. it just doesn't feel the same =( "
"our manager asked me who my team was last year and i was like... last year? oooh haha right. STEE FTW!"

It's hard, it really is. No, I didn't expect to win that game. Quite the opposite, in fact. I knew perfectly well that we were not going to win. But I still expected more than what I saw. Everyone keeps telling me that the team we played was REALLY good, and they are. But really? Not being able to stab the ring even when you had no pressure on you? Sweet jesus. At least the first year A's got a little taste of what this season is going to be like.
I know it won't be the same as last year. It's still hard going from being the team that owns everyone by 8 goals to the team is being owned by 8 goals.

So glad I have you two there to understand what I am feeling and to cry with me. ♥

Though I am extremely disappointed that we won't get together next weekend with roo.
Silly boo and her internshipness.
Silly me looking forward to it so much.

I don't know what to think about it.
Also, I am getting rather annoyed, because I get on the computer and am all, I have a lot to blog about right now! And then I get to actually blogging and it comes out in about what sentence.
I mean, who is interested in reading just one sentence that barely explains anything? Not I.

I have this one point of time during the day where my brain seems to go crazy.
It's right after I wake up. I feel like my brain feels like it needs to make up for the time that it wasted not thinking while I was sleeping. Because things rush through my head at a hundred miles per hour. It almost hurts.
What ALWAYS happens, is that when I get up to take a shower, I get a random song stuck in my head. It usually does not relate to anything that I was thinking about.

English class is making me think FAR too much. I don't like it, because nonsense keeps pouring out of my brain.