Forward Motion.

Today was one of those days where no matter how good of a mood I was in to begin with, my emotions were destined to take a turn for the worst.
These days have been going by far too fast.

"You and I were friends from outer space, afraid to let go."

What happens when this summer ends? My one reason to see some of the people I love most dearly will cease to exist. And then what? We go our separate ways, never to see one other again?

And then where will I be?

I know where I am now. Trapped, feeling like the moment to plan the rest of my life has come, and I am not ready.
At least I know what I want to do. I have figured out that much. It is just getting there that is the hard part.

But then I think about the future. All I see is people updating their status's (statusi?) and saying things like, "GOT ENGAGED (for real, this time)", or "I AM HAVING A BABY (also for real this time)".
And I wonder.
Will we still be friends by then?

I truly hope so.

There were things that were a part of my life last year that I barely took notice to. Now, the people who were a part of these things are going to be moving on, so they will not be there anymore.
The smiles I got every time they saw me. Our jokes about holding open the door for one another. Going to subway together at lunch.

I miss you already.
I am terrified to move forwards.