Blah.

Forward Motion.

Today was one of those days where no matter how good of a mood I was in to begin with, my emotions were destined to take a turn for the worst.
These days have been going by far too fast.

"You and I were friends from outer space, afraid to let go."

What happens when this summer ends? My one reason to see some of the people I love most dearly will cease to exist. And then what? We go our separate ways, never to see one other again?

And then where will I be?

I know where I am now. Trapped, feeling like the moment to plan the rest of my life has come, and I am not ready.
At least I know what I want to do. I have figured out that much. It is just getting there that is the hard part.

But then I think about the future. All I see is people updating their status's (statusi?) and saying things like, "GOT ENGAGED (for real, this time)", or "I AM HAVING A BABY (also for real this time)".
And I wonder.
Will we still be friends by then?

I truly hope so.

There were things that were a part of my life last year that I barely took notice to. Now, the people who were a part of these things are going to be moving on, so they will not be there anymore.
The smiles I got every time they saw me. Our jokes about holding open the door for one another. Going to subway together at lunch.

I miss you already.
I am terrified to move forwards.

HOW excited am I for all these movies?! SO excited!!

1. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
2. Secretariat
3. Voyage of The Dawn Treader
4. Legend of the Guardians (don't judge. It was my favourite book series when I was like, 8)
5. The Hunger Games
6. Pirates of the Caribbean 4: On Stranger Tides

AHHHHHHHHHHH.
I had to get that out.