I never met you, but I wish I had.
Today isn't the only day, but it is especially today that I see the lives you touched,
the lives who'd do anything to bring you back.
I can see how special you were. How much you meant to them.
I've never seen someone have such a huge impact on someone else's life.
But you did. And these things can never be undone.
Just like how you will never be forgotten.

So today, I grieve for the girl I never met. The girl I wasn't lucky enough to meet.

Life was too short for you, but God needed his angel back. He needed you to help him take care of all of us down here. I'm grateful that you are there when I can't be enough for my friends.
When I look at the stars I know you're up there, watching over them. And I'm grateful.
Thank you for keeping them safe.
RIP DBH.

It's great when you find a song that quite perfectly describes an aspect of your life.
For example. I've always believed in God. And that's not just because my sister is the churchobsessedhopingtobecomeaministersoshecanhelptheworld girl. Honestly, you don't know how many fits I've thrown about my parents trying to make me go to church.
But that's never really stopped me believing. Not until everything started falling apart, and I started praying for help. I stopped believing because when I needed help the most, things only got worse.
Second chances, God?
So, I stumbled across the new Starfield cd, which, by chance, was a top seller on itunes (Starfield, really? Since when do people other than me know about them?), and the song Rediscover you.

I need to just admit, my faith is paper thin.
I'm feeling so burned out on religion.

I say an empty prayer, I sing a tired song.
I need to just admit the passion's gone.

And I want to get it back.

You told me, look for you and I will find.
So I'm here, like I'm searching for the first time.
Revive me, Jesus make this cold heart start to move.
Help me rediscover you.

Is that possible?

Someone should sing me "Sixteen Going on Seventeen" right now, or else they are going to miss their chance.
Right now, the number seventeen is making me feel old.
But tomorrow will come, and just as every other year, I will feel no different.
And then, it will be exactly one year until I turn 18.
The world should be frightened.