I think,

It has been a very long time since I have wanted something so bad.
I think it would be okay if it were actually up to me; I could work hard to achieve it.
But it's not. I have to depend on many others for it to happen.
I know they can do it.
So why am I having such a hard time believing in them?

:)

You don't even understand how excited I was when the lady who makes the announcements at Abe said "Ruhm". Made my day.
Jodie, your ruhm senses better me tingling next time.

Seasons of love.

So much happens in February. Groundhogs day, Valentines day (also known as Twyla's birthday), my sister's birthday (20th, OMG), my birthday. But even so, February, at least for the past few years, has never been a good month for me. I really hope that changes. I have so much going on this month, and if things don't go my way, I'm going to fall again. I really don't want to go back there.